Whenever you choose not to follow the crowd, you will, at various points of the journey, second guess yourself. I think it is just part and parcel of walking against the tide. Which can be a good thing – it can either solidify your position clearly or it can show up its inadequacy which will lead to a better decision/direction.
I had one of those moments a few weeks ago 😀 We had decided on a  high school plan for our children last year. See Choosing our Highschool/Secondary School Curriculum. But a few weeks ago, when I met up with some highschool homeschooling moms, I got a freak-me-out-moment 😀
As I listened to what they were doing to prepare their child/ren,, they were doing a lot! And I was doing none. I felt seriously discouraged when I heard them sharing the numerous classes and activities they have signed their child/ren up for and how they are making sure all available options are covered. Yes, there is peer pressure within the homeschool community as well.
Instead of feeling energised and inspired, I felt lousy. I felt that I must be short changing my children. So I did what I always do after moping and moaning about things – I went to God. And I had to go back to the hows and whys of our decision.
He called, He empowers, He never fails.
He has been faithful and I know He will be faithful. I just need to do my part and stop looking around at what others are doing or not doing, because He will definitely do His part. I shall look to Him and not to the distractions around me. I shall remember what He has called us to do, not what He has called others to do. So help me, Lord!
We will not be changing course unless He says so. We will stick with what we have decided and keep at it. And I pray that the next time I meet up with any other mom, I will not experience a repeat of a freak-me-out-moment 😀
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It is always hard not to feel like we are missing something, the “gaps” ya know?! but all in all, the one thing we need to teach our kids is God’s grace. That is the one thing they will always fall back on when times get tough as an adult (don’t we?). Keep on Keeping on little mama, I think you are doing a fabulous job! =)
Thank you Sheri! You must have graduated a few by now, right? 🙂
Thank you for this post. I believe God led me to your post. I’ve just started homeschooling my 2-year old and it’s not easy battling doubts and a lot of “are you sure you know what you’re doing” from well-meaning friends and family. I’m doubting myself when I hear other homeschooling mothers spend a lot on books, enrichment classes, doing up lots of activities for their young ones. Sometimes, I feel like I’m not doing anything or it’s not enough.